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Libby Lazewnik tells an enchanting tale of a past forgotten, yet somehow not lost
It was a modest ring, just a slender circlet with no fancy
engraving or ornamentation. If not for the fact that it was made of
silver, you might have thought it no more than a child's toy, a
thing made out of clay or plastic in an idle moment, just large
enough to fit a young finger.
Not that the ring was crude-looking. On the contrary, it was
extremely graceful. It had clearly been made by a master craftsman.
And yet, there was something hurried-looking about it, as though
the long-ago silversmith had shaped it with rushed but loving
hands... As indeed, he had. But there was no way that Estie could
know that.
She held the ring up to her eyes and gazed at it dubiously.
"It's -- very nice, Ma."
Her mother smiled. "I know it's not very much to look at, but
that ring has been in our family for a long time."
"How long?"
"I'm not sure... But it was given to me by my grandmother,
when I turned twelve. So I thought it only fitting to give it
to you now, on the day you turn bas mitzvah."
Estie's best friend, Mindy, had gotten a trip to California as
her bas mitzvah present. Her other good friend, Sarah,
received a stunning necklace-and-bracelet combination with real
ruby and emerald chips. Estie eyed the modest ring again. "Thanks,
Ma," she said politely, fighting down her disappointment.
Her mother didn't seem to notice anything amiss. She was half-
turned away, closing the jewelry box from which she'd tenderly
extracted the ring a few minutes before. "You're welcome, honey.
Wear it in good health."
Estie went into her own bedroom, the ring clenched in her
fist. She thrust it into a dresser drawer and tried to push it out
of her mind as well. It was not that she didn't appreciate a family
heirloom. It was just that... A vision of the ring rose up in her
mind, unbidden. It was so simple -- so plain! She'd be almost
embarrassed to show it to her friends.
That night, at the family dinner table, Estie was immensely
relieved to find her real present, sitting at the side of her
plate. She opened the colorful wrap with eager hands. Inside was an
expensive-looking camera, complete with all the lenses and gadgets
she'd been longing for. All her hints of the past few months, then,
had not been in vain!
In addition, her older brother, in yeshiva, had arranged for
a present, too: a gift certificate for her favorite bookstore. Her
two younger brothers had contributed a World's Best Sister
mug out of their own allowances. And her grandparents had pitched
in with generous gifts, too. So, all in all, it was a much happier
Estie who returned to her room later that night. She piled all her
gifts on the dresser, admiring them.
Suddenly, she remembered the ring. It didn't bother her nearly
so much now as when she'd thought it was her only bas mitzvah
gift. She pulled open the drawer, took it out, and slipped it onto
her ring finger. She was a petite girl with slim hands, and it fit
neatly, almost as though it had been made for her. In the
lamplight, the silver took on a warm glow, like pale fire.
It was actually a pretty ring, if you stopped to really look
at it. And it was a family keepsake. Estie felt a rush of love for
her mother, who'd saved it just for her all these years -- and
another of curiosity about the original owner. Who had she been,
and what had she been like?
She supposed she would never know.
A little while later, she was climbing into bed, pleasantly
weary after her exciting day. It had been a special day, a turning-
bas-mitzvah day. Life would never be the same after this. And
as if to underscore the thought, she felt the unaccustomed weight
of the slender ring on her finger as she slipped her hand
comfortably under her pillow and prepared to sleep...
"Ah, my Dina, have you come to visit me?" Papa asked heartily
as she and Mama walked through the front room and into the back,
where he was bent over a smooth silver fruit bowl. She grinned
happily and came to stand by his side. "What are you doing, Papa?"
"Just finishing this bowl for Mrs. Minkin. But if you'll wait
just a minute, there's something else I want to show you." He got
up from his stool, wiped his hands on the apron he wore to protect
his clothes, and went over to a table in the corner of the
workshop.
He picked something up and brought it over to Dina.
"See? I made it just for you. It's for your birthday. Hold out
your finger, Dina. That one."
Obediently, she held out a pudgy finger. Her father carefully
slipped the ring onto it. "I made it in a bit of a hurry this
morning," he apologized, glancing over the little girl's head at
her mother. "I'd planned to spend the whole morning on it today,
until Mrs. Minkin came by demanding that her fruit bowl be ready by
noon." He glanced at his timepiece. "She should be here any
minute."
"We'll be on our way, then," Mama had replied, smiling. "Dina,
aren't you going to thank Papa for your gift?"
Dina was radiant. "Thank you, Papa!" she cried, flinging
her short arms around his waist and hugging him with all her might.
"It's the most beautiful ring in the world. Except for baths and
things, I'm never going to take it off!"
It didn't happen right away. True to her promise, she wore the
ring faithfully for seven years. And before she finally removed it
permanently from the finger where her father had placed it, her
world had changed so completely that it was hard to remember what
it had once been like to be five years old, safe, and secure...
At first, she stopped often -- sometimes as often as ten times
a day -- to admire her Papa's beautiful present. After a while, as
people will do, she got used to the ring and didn't admire it quite
as often. Still, for a long time it remained her most treasured
possession. Then she turned six, and got a lovely doll, and the
ring was relegated to second-place in her young heart. At seven her
present was an ermine collar and muff to go with her new winter
coat. That was also the year that Perel, her new baby sister, was
born. That was the best present of all!
The next two years were happy ones for the two little girls,
though not so happy for their parents. Clouds were massing on the
horizon of their world -- clouds of war. A madman in Germany was
spouting all sorts of hateful things about the Jews, and people
were beginning to listen. Papa and Mama often conferred late into
the night, their voices blending into the night-sounds of the
street outside as Dina lay dropping off to sleep in her bed next
door. The voices became a part of the fear she was beginning,
vaguely, to sense around her. It was the same feeling that she saw
in her aunts' and uncles' faces when they came to visit. But, being
a child, Dina was able to push such dark things out of her mind
most of the time. She played with her playmates and her little
sister, paid occasional visits to Papa's shop, wore her beautiful
clothes and played with her dolls, and was happy.
"But why can't I take Tina with me?" she wailed. Tina
was the name she'd given her favorite doll, the seventh-birthday-
gift.
"We must travel very light," her mother answered soberly. "And
as fast as we can."
There was something in her voice, and in her stricken look,
that dried Dina's tears and made her stop protesting about the doll
she must leave behind. That night, she took her place beside little
Perel in the farmer's cart her father had bought at enormous cost,
and watched her beloved house slip behind them until it was
swallowed up in the darkness. The horses clip-clopped slowly, and
then a little faster, down the road that led to the unknown. From
that moment, Dina never cried again.
What she felt went too deep for tears. She had lost her world,
but she must not show Mama and Papa how much that frightened her.
They expected her to be brave, and to look after Perel. She would
not cry.
Dina was nine years old.
But this, it seemed to her, was the only advantage their new
home had over their old one. Sometimes, shivering in front of the
inadequate fire on a bitterly cold morning, she would remember the
hearty blaze that had warmed her room all winter long, back home.
Chewing her meager rations of potatoes and dark bread, she would
think wistfully of the heaping plates of good food she'd been
served at home, and how she'd often leave half of it over,
untouched. How she wished she had all those uneaten portions now!
Also, as a resident of Russia she was obliged to go to a
Russian school. The children there made fun of her because she was
a Jewess, though she was a bright enough student to earn a grudging
respect from all but the worst of them. Lessons were a relief
because they distracted her from the dreariness of her life, from
Papa's stooped shoulders and Mama's lined, worried face, and little
Perel's crying. Perel cried a lot these days.
There were better day and worse days, but no really good
days. Still, they were safe. Even when Germany declared war on
Russia and the men were mobilized to fight, there was little chance
of the enemy army marching into their tiny village... or so she
hoped.
Then another problem reared its head. Food, never in lavish
supply, grew very scarce indeed. All the farmers were required to
give up most of their crops to feed the army. There was little left
over for the farmers' families, and almost nothing for the
villagers who depended on them for food. For the first time, Dina
learned what it was to be hungry. Really hungry.
One gray afternoon when she was twelve, she trudged home from
school in her too-thin coat and too-small boots to find her mother
on the point of going out. "Papa went this morning to see if he can
find us some food. He was supposed to be back by now, and I'm
worried. I'm going after him."
"But Mama --"
"You stay here, Dina, and watch Perel. I won't be long." And
with the strange, hard look Mama had been wearing more and more
often now, she slipped through the door.
Dina was left alone with her little sister, who took one look
at the door closing behind their mother and promptly burst into
tears. Dina did her best to comfort her, playing childish games to
while away the hours. The winter afternoon drew into an early dusk.
When the house grew almost unbearably cold, she placed a carefully
hoarded stick of wood onto the fire. It hardly made a difference to
the cold.
"I'm hungry," Perel whimpered.
So was Dina, but she held her tongue. Another game succeeded
in diverting the little girl's mind -- but not for long. Soon Perel
said again, with a woebegone look and quivering lip -- "I'm
really hungry."
Dina went into the larder to see if there was anything to eat.
She found only a few wormy potatoes and a cupful of moldy cornmeal
at the bottom of a bag.
"Mama and Papa have gone to get food," she told her sister
with a semblance of cheerfulness. "It won't be long till they're
back."
"But I'm hungry now!" Young as she was, Perel had grown
accustomed to waiting longer than she would have liked between
meals, and to going to bed never fully satisfied. Dina looked at
her with pity. She must really be feeling awful to complain this
way.
Involuntarily, her mind went back to their old house, and the
plentiful meals she'd taken so much for granted. Perel was crying
in earnest now, low, hopeless sobs that shook her thin shoulders
and wrung Dina's heart. She reached out a hand to stroke her
sister's head -- and saw the ring.
It was so much a part of her that she couldn't remember the
last time she'd noticed it. Vaguely, she wondered how it still fit
her. It was probably because her fingers were so thin, and had been
that way for all these hungry years... As she gazed at it, the ring
gleamed dully in the weak firelight. It needed a good polishing.
She remembered when she'd been five years old and Papa had first
put the ring on her finger. Five years old -- the very age Perel
was now. What a very different life she'd led than her poor little
sister!
Impulsively, she pulled off the ring.
"Perel," she said softly. "If you'll be a good girl and stop
crying and wait for Mama and Papa to come home, I'll give you a
very special present."
Perel lifted her head. It had been ages since she'd last had
anything that could be called a 'present.' "What?" she asked, her
voice thick with tears.
"This." She held out the ring.
Perel's eyes widened. For the first time in a very long time,
she smiled in pure delight.
"Can I keep it, Dina? For always?"
Dina hesitated. Then she smiled and said, "Yes. For always.
Now, no more tears, Perel."
There were no more tears as Perel grasped the ring in one
chubby hand and pushed it onto her own ring finger. She didn't even
cry when Mama came home -- alone, without Papa and not a morsel of
food.
"I couldn't find him," she gasped, on the verge of tears
herself. "Girls, let's daven."
They said Tehillim and took turns looking out the
window. And at ten o'clock that night, many hours after they'd
expected him, Papa finally staggered through the door, a bundle
tucked under his arms.
"That was close," he said breathlessly, closing and locking
the door behind him. "The authorities were on the lookout for black
marketeers in farm produce. I nearly got caught, and had to hide in
a ditch for hours..."
But he was back, and unhurt, and there were potatoes and
carrots and some wheat to pound into flour for bread.
That night, Dina went to sleep with her stomach almost full.
The ring was missing from her finger, but she hardly minded. It
belonged to an earlier time, a time when she'd been safe and happy.
Let Perel enjoy it now.
"Bubby, why are you crying?" Yael asked.
Bubby Perel sniffled and tried to smile. "I was just
remembering my own bas mitzvah, my dear. It took place just
after we came to this country. I hardly knew a word of English yet,
but my big sister, Dina, taught me how to say `Happy birthday.'
She'd learned some English in the D.P. camp we lived in for a few
years after the war."
Yael loved hearing stories of her grandmother's past. "Tell me
more," she begged.
So Bubby Perel began weaving scenes for her, sad ones and
happy ones. And somewhere among the memories, she came upon the old
ring her sister had given her on a dark winter's evening when she'd
been crying from hunger.
"Wait a minute," she said, getting up and going into her
bedroom. She rummaged around in among her jewellery for a few
moments, and then let loose with a triumphant cry. "Here it is!
Imagine, I've been carrying it around with me all these years!"
"What is it, Bubby?" Yael asked, drawing closer.
"A ring. A very special ring, made by my father, of blessed
memory, for my sister Dina..."
The story of the ring was quickly told. Then Bubby Perel
smiled. "I had only sons, you know -- and you're my first
granddaughter. I'd like you to have this now."
And that was how Yael became the proud possessor of her
bubby's ring.
It didn't fit her finger, so she put it on a ribbon and wore
it around her neck. A few weeks later she decided it was too
uncomfortable to wear that way, and put it carefully away in her
own little jewellery box, alongside the charm bracelet her uncle
and aunt had given her for her birthday, and the silver Star of
David on a chain that her father had brought back from a trip to
Israel. And there it lay, undisturbed, for years.
When Yael married, she transferred the contents of her
jewellerly box into the bigger one she would use in her new home.
The ring went along with her, too, tucked into its own little
corner until it would be needed again.
And Yael had a daughter of her own, and twelve years passed,
years filled with joy and mitzvos and good fortune. And then
her own little Estie was suddenly a bas mitzvah.
The ring had a new owner.
If the ring could have spoken, it might have told Estie, sound
asleep on this special night, all about itself. It might have
described the long, long journey from the small silversmith's shop
in Europe to her own pretty Brooklyn bedroom.
But rings can't speak. And, frankly, Estie was much more
interested in the future than in ancient history, so it was an open
question whether she would even bother asking her mother to tell
her about the ring's past. She would never know more than the
sketchiest outline of the ring's life before it had come to her.
But something of the love with which that band of silver had
been crafted by a doting father -- of the courage and self-
sacrifice of the big sister who passed it on -- of the devotion of
a grandmother who'd lived through so much in her long, busy life --
and, of course, of the tenderness in her own mother's heart as
she'd handed it to her today -- must have soaked into the ring.
Because when Estie woke up the next morning and saw it there, she
felt as though something had changed.
She was a bas mitzvah now, but it was more than that.
She carried on her person a keepsake from the past, and she would
bear it into the future... Until another girl would slip it onto
her finger one day. That as-yet unborn girl might think it plain,
as Estie had this afternoon. She might be equally as ignorant of
the ring's history, perhaps.
But she would know -- as Estie knew, and as all the other
girls who'd had it before her had known -- the most important thing
of all: that it was given to her by someone who loved her as much
as life itself.
Author Libby Lazewnik is one of Jewry's most acclaimed juvenile fiction writers. Beginning with this issue, she becomes a regular contributor to Jr. Jewish World.
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