Adam and Eve in the
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IT WAS DIFFICULT for my relatives, right from the start.
When did it start?
Not last week, when my daughter got married in Jerusalem. They already knew what to expect:
that the men would be on one side, women on the other.
Was it back in the eighties, then, when they first heard we had put her in an all-girl
high-school? Or before that, in an all-girl kindergarten? Maybe it dates back to when they
first found out about the religious emphasis in the educational curriculum - morning hours,
Torah studies; afternoon for secular subjects. But how will she get into a good college?
Was it when I myself got married? This is segregation, my father had murmured, pained, under
his breath. It makes your mother and sisters into second-class citizens. Can't we enjoy the
wedding all together, as a family?
Didn't it start back in the early seventies, when I stopped wearing pants? When my hemlines
got lower, my sleeves longer, when I stopped going to coed college parties? When I wouldn't
eat with them at restaurants, when I first koshered one of my mother's pots, one of her pans,
a single set of her silverware, when I had to say no to her vegetable soup, that I'd always
loved, her homemade herb bread. On Saturdays, when I wouldn't join in on family outings
anymore, when I wouldn't turn off and on lights.... The phone would ring and they'd call,
"Sarah! It's for you!" I --- sitting there on my isolated Shabbat, looking deaf and dumb,
befuddled, feeling guilty for all this discomfort I was causing. Yes, of course it's
wonderful you're finding out more about your heritage, but you don't need to go overboard.
Can't you discover your Jewish identity without being so extreme about it? You're going back
to the Old World.
Last week they came from America for the wedding. All the relatives - the agnostics and the
conservatives, the orthodox and the atheists and the female rabbi, the Reconstructionist and
the Federation activists and the Jews for whom Jewishness seems so irrelevant that they don't
bother to define themselves --- we kept joining hands to dance. We danced and danced and
danced, not for one hour or two or three or four but 'till the wee hours of the morning, men
on one side, women on the other, in what my mother, amazed, called "an explosion of joy that
just kept exploding all night," hundreds of us, dancing as if nothing else in the world
existed but our feet and our songs and our exhilaration.
What was it that lifted us up off the floor like that, almost as one person? For my part, it
wasn't only what any mother feels upon seeing her daughter arrive safely on the opposite
shore; it was tasting the first fruits. Here was the first generation born into this way of
life after the break in continuity, which had occurred, in my particular family tree, two and
three generations back. Here were a young woman and a young man who've grown up in a society
that emphasizes not a person's desires for satisfaction but his or her responsibilities; a
society that says everything he or she does in the world has meaning, and importance, in ways
that transcend human understanding. And one of this society's more noticeable hallmarks, for
those looking on from the side, has always been that daunting separation of men and women - a
custom that to uninvolved observers seems so oddly archaic and unnecessary as to be
outrageous. Why the all-girl, all-boy schools, why those weddings and bar-mitzvahs and
synagogues that insist on men on one side, women on the other?
Here was Yael, with all the friends with whom she has grown up, girls who didn't need to
devote their girlhoods to trying to be attractive to the opposite sex, who never had to
regard each other as competition, nor themselves as objects. And in another sphere, Yehezkel
and his community of beloved friends, holding hands and dancing jubilantly on their side of
the mehitzah, and hidden from those young men's view, the unrestrained, absolutely
celebratory and exultant dancing of the young women, who have imbibed from their earliest
days on the planet the understanding that we're each given precisely what we need to get, if
we only have eyes to see; that we can rejoice in another person's happiness because it can't
infringe on our own It's a society in which children don't judge each other by their clothes,
or their coolness, or their good or bad looks; in which the ideal is to perceive each of us
as bearing the divine image.
We were all in an old world together, that's for sure, but not the one they expected - not
the stereotyped caricature of 0rthodox Jewry to which they were accustomed We were in the old
world that is forever a new world, one that's greener, lusher and fresher in our days, one
can say now with hindsight, for having been pruned in the tragic cut-offs that first occurred
in Europe a hundred or so years ago: the world that lives like a hidden oasis within all of
us, the Garden of Eden. When all is stripped away, what are any of us left with? What
matters?
The dream at the center of the world: a young man and a young woman, in love for the first
Jewish World Review August 11, 1999 / 29 Av, 5759
Garden of Jerusalem
By Sarah Shapiro
Mine was the joy of seeing with my own eyes what all those years had been for. All those
years of mutual embarrassment and mutual apologies for hurting the people we most love, and
their subtle sense of having been repudiated by my choice. All was worth it for the two
children who have never been wounded by other relationships, so that neither is afraid now of
giving himself and herself whole-heartedly, extravagantly, splendidly.
JWR contributor Sarah Shapiro is a writer in Jerusalem. You may contact her by clicking here.